How God Can Be Cognized / “Museum” of Freak People “Museum” of Freak PeoplePreparing me for great spiritual service God made me a broad scientist of wide type. Among other things, I studied professionally many aspects of medicine, and even taught physiology in a medical institute. I also became deeply acquainted with life of many animals, worked even with dolphins in a scientific dolphinarium. Particularly, I showed that dolphin’s sexual drive can be induced by injecting oestrogen folliculin to females. What a spectacular sight — the sexual love of dolphins! A pair swims in loving ecstasy on their sides snuggling up with bellies. They move absolutely synchronously: dive as a single whole, in a few seconds come to the surface to make a breath and then swim underwater again… It creates strong energetic field of joy and happiness. Afterwards, they look gratefully at the man who made it possible, smile, thank quite distinctly!… … In this scientific organization I had occasions to hear about villainous abuse of these magnificent animals by the people in white medical coats. For example, one of them had to “prove scientifically” owing to which parts of the body dolphins swim.* He takes animals out of water, chops off their tails with an axe and throws them back. Dolphins, impregnating water with blood that spurts from wounds, choke and drown. Well…, it proves that the tail with fin is really needed for dolphins to swim and to float. Then what flippers are needed for? He shops off flippers of other dolphins and observes how for a long time they try to float with the help of the tail only. And, exhausted, they drown eventually… Excellent! The material for the scientific publication is collected!… … Dolphins can make sounds intended specially for people, i.e. within the frequency range perceivable by the human ear. In such a way they tell people about their joy, gratitude, friendship! But they cry of pain in their ultrasonic range, which is non-perceivable by people. Thus, dolphins became convenient “units for tests” for doctors and physiologists: no need to bother about anesthetizing the patients for surgical operations! To beginners, asonished with this cruelty, they explained: as you can see they do not cry, so it is not painful to them; the pain sensitivity of dolphins is very low… And cut them without anesthesia, just having bound tight… Among other things, surgical operations on cerebrum were carried out. They make trepanation of the skull and stick electrodes into various parts of the cerebrum to see what comes out. When the workday of doctors-experimenters ends they go home leaving the dolphin alive in a bathtub with open skull and exposed brain for tomorrow. Next day they, with fresh energy, came back to continue sticking pins into his brain… It lasts for several days until the dolphin dies. In this organization I got involved into a vivid episode of scientific falsification. At that time I was a head of laboratory. Two incapable and lying women “researchers” from another similar organization decided to publish an article and to make it more trustworthy they made me a co-author without my knowledge. The article was based on extensive experiments with rich material. Yet, these experiments were never conducted: they made up all the material. An interesting detail: at the beginning of the article it was said that the experiments were conducted on rats, but at the end of the article — on mice… They had no wits even for devising a logical lie! Before this case I had conversations with one of these “scientific researchers” and expressed softly my amazement about her total incompetence in the subject of her thesis. When I recommended her to read certain scientific publication she always reacted in the same way. She shouted in response: “How can you talk to me in such a way! I’m a mother of two children!” And as a proof she brought her poor sons — pallid, dejected, reserved… … I saw many similar pseudo-researchers of various ranks. For example, I worked along with a spinster who was making a thesis on sexology. Since she has no personal sexological experience and, in general, all this was alien and incomprehensible to her she could not learn the difference between two “foreign” words: erection and orgasm… Yet, she defended the thesis successfully! … Or a Doctor of Medicine stating that it is necessary to eat food, which causes intensive flatulence: for it is only due to gases that the food moves through the intestine… … Or a fat old alcoholic and morphine addict occupying the position of a director of a medical institute. He became “famous” by writing “ordered” ideological publication against Sigmund Freud and was promptly “advanced” in the scientific rank by functionaries of the Communist Party. During last ten years of his directorship in the institute the only his business on the work place was lifting up women’s skirts (not in the figurative, but in the strict sense). Such was the morphine’s effect on him causing disgusting lustfulness of insane moronic man. Being a director he used to sign papers only after harassing the woman — a laboratory assistant, a post-graduate, a researcher — who brought the paper for signing into his office. When a man comes to him (me, for instance), he led him out into the waiting room and, giving him a wink, addressed each woman waiting there: “Let’s see what you have here…” And lifted up one after another their skirts. His death was remarkable. He died not as a hero fighting for people’s good and not by serene good death. He died sitting on a lavatory pan. Another similar director — not a drug addict, but a Corresponding Member* of the Academy of Medical Sciences — was governing another medical institute, fortunately not for a long time, until he died. Apparently, he was a gorilla in his last incarnation. His intellectual level was quite low even in ordinary situations. But when got angry he posed as an excited gorilla male (very stooping with dangling straight arms) and losing his self-control made jerky rotary body movements. At that he shouted always the same: “Fine him! Dismiss! Imprison! Arrest!” During the time of his directorship the institute lost all best doctors and leading scientists… … There was another interesting “exhibit” in that institute— a quarrelsome woman with quite low intelligence occupying the position of chief-doctor. In the language of the old psychiatry such types were diagnosed with physiological feeble-mindedness. Physiological here means not pathological yet, i.e. not oligophrenia, but very close to it. I tried to find out asking the “veterans” of the institute: why that silly woman is on the chief-doctor position? They replied me with expressive gestures: she CANNOT be discharged…, to let her work with patients is not possible too, since she will maim them; so to keep her on this “pedestal” is the lesser of the evils… … Another academician was a Ukrainian biologist. Fidgety-jerky-important, he always spoke so rapidly that nothing of his speech could be grasped but few words. Nobody understood him. The most interesting thing was to observe scientific meetings where he as an academician and director of the institute was giving a speech, which somebody had to comment, to praise, to thank for valuable advice and instructions… Subordinates had to compose what he seemingly meant in his speech. At the same time they needed to watch attentively his mimicry to adjust their praise and thanks if something is wrong… … How such directors advanced in the official career? — by pleasing the bosses of the Communist Party and KGB: for example, by providing someone with a good position (someone’s son, daughter, or wife), dismissing someone, informing against someone, slandering someone, defiling someone publicly… … Preparing me for great social work God showed me various psycho-types of people. It was like an excursion in zoo to me, where He presented to view typical exhibits… They were moronic scientists… There were also mentally ill doctors who needed treatment themselves, yet they “treated” patients and maimed them… There were thieves justifying their deeds by blaming the people whom they robbed: “He is such a fool: he hid it not well! It’s his fault! Fools need to be given lessons!…” Or — sadists who tortured others through physical pain or slander and felt pleasure when doing that. Or — such a typical “exhibit”. To my father, who worked as a chief accountant, an auditor from Moscow came from time to time for conducting an audit. It was customary to please and entertain the auditors. Therefore, this auditor (it was always the same person) every time stayed not in the hotel but in our home. During the “audit” he was doing nothing, just drinking vodka (the report about the audit he made afterwards in Moscow taking from the father corresponding papers prepared for him by the accountants). Having had spent on drinks all his money, he stole money of my parents. They noticed, frowned, but bear with it. Another obligatory part of the “audit” was fishing. Usually they took me too. All were fishing there in order to give him “fresh catch” to Moscow. And he was only drinking vodka. Also, winking at me drunkenly, he proposed that I rape someone of the fishing men. But it was completely incomprehensible to me, so I said nothing, just smiled confusedly… … Violence (any kind of it) against people was unacceptable and incomprehensible to me from the very childhood. There was no single case in my life when I had to use violence against a person for the sake of reaching some my goal or, as others do it, for no particular reason, for fun, or out of “bad mood”. When my schoolmate at the senior school grades — straight A student — shared his dreams about taking part in gang rape of a woman, I could not understand him: it was something beyond my comprehension. But he only laughed at me! … Later he became a medical officer, served in Moscow leading “merry” way of life, got a good salary and laughed about it: “Is it really money in Moscow?!” … When in 1968 Soviet intervention into Czechoslovakia was under preparation there was a danger that I can be conscripted for military service. I firmly decided to shoot myself, but not others. But I was not drafted: I managed to enter post-graduate study and my conscription was postponed. However, tens of other conscientious youths from the Soviet forces, which were sent to enslave Czechoslovak nations, shot then themselves. They became heroes in the face of God contrary to aggressors… … Some years later I had an occasion to hear a story from a member of a tank crew, who participated in the intervention. He was in the leading tank of a column of advancing armored troops. The heroes of resistance set up a barricade on their way on the road. The crew of the tank opened machine-gun fire. The defenders of the barricade laid down in a ditch. Then the tank driver went down from the road to bypass the barricade but one of the tank’s tracks he set going in the ditch… And the narrator — with pleasure, savoring it — showed how one after another the skulls of living people were crushing under the track: “like ripe watermelons!”… … Jan Palach — a Czech hero — burned his body publicly in Prague as a demonstration of protest. And I had a serious intention to do the same in Moscow on the Red Square. At that time I did not value my life because I did not know its meaning. But highly valued scrupulosity and hated outrages on it. … But I was stopped by God, Whom I did not know yet. He asked me a very reasonable question: how can I get enough amount of gasoline in a strange city, bring it to the Red Square, write and set up the corresponding placard? He “inhibited” sharply my intention to realize this action. … At those days other men burned their bodies in Moscow. But God was preparing me for another service…
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